Do I persevere, or quit?

When I began my deconditioning journey, I had a desire to find out if I could actually live my life in a state of flow and magnetism.

Like, could the way that I work, create, make money, and make decisions feel natural, unlike the choppy, anxiety-ridden, mentally-driven path I'd been on for decades?

You know, the one where you feel like in order to get the results you want, you have to control the outcomes, force your actions, and engineer everything in advance?

Sure, I'd experienced moments of flow. That feeling of: this is exactly where I'm meant to be, and my path is unfolding step by step, even if I don't know what's happening. But it wasn't the default setting in my life.